homeless freak

yes,i noe.. e nick sucks.. but my life realli sucks, coz i am realli tat...a homeless freak now.. over e past 1.5 weeks,i have slept at airports, restaurants,lan shops, school hall lounge... it realli sucks to be in such a position, but i guess i dun have a choice...i cannot trouble pple n stay in their houses no matter wat
i dun understand y my parents treat me like this... i am e elder brother n i am not nasty or anything.. somehow my presence irk them, at difficult times, i have to endure my parents' nonsense, n i never complain.. n while i go through all these tough moments, my younger brother simply avoid them by been overseas studying, n spending more money. n yet, eventually i am e one been kicked out of e house, while my parents long for my younger brother to return b to them.
nobody will believe wat make them chase me out. it all juz coz of a superstition. n i was chased out juz like tat to protect themselves. well, e superstition did bring us bad luck when they believe n react according to it..
it is apparant tat i have been taken for granted. i am definateli staying away from them for some time,as i think we used to be getting too close for comfort.
this incident aside, these few days i am busy doing fyp. my gambling has been on a high streak. i have won b all my losses in poker in juz 2 sessions n won even more. so,been tight n following e technical odds do pay off in e long run after all....my mj has been undefeated,lol... although it is mostly luck..lol which is a good thing coz now,i need something to help me tide over this difficult period(my parents dun wan me!!)
oh yah,merry christmas ,pple!